There's Only Grace

Psalm 51
1Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
2Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
3For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
4Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
5Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
6Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
7Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
8Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.
9Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.
10Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
11Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
12Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
13Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
14Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
15O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.
16For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.
17The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
18Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem.
19Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.

This passage of Scripture is a little longer than what I normally share in my posts, but it's been a very good while since I've posted, and this may turn out to be a long post anyway.
Well, as I promised, I am back to blogging. It took me a little longer than I intended to come back, but certain things had to be done before I could share my heart here.
For over a year and a half I have shared my heart on this blog. I've shared many of the ups and downs of my life with you guys. I've shared things God has taught me, both the easy way and the hard way. Well, in the last few months, He has been teaching me the hardest lesson I've ever had to learn.
See, I've done some confessing on here before. I have very often admitted that I'm far from perfect. But a few months back, I did something that I was so ashamed of that I only admitted and confessed it to God. However, though we confess our sins, at times we still must face the consequences of them.
In my case, the consequence is that I'm pregnant. Eleven weeks and 1 day to be exact. I must admit that sharing that here is harder than I thought it would be, though several of you VERY ENCOURAGING Christian ladies have informed me that NO MATTER WHAT, God can still use me. (Those ladies will never know how much their words of encouragement have meant to me, as I have faced this time of uncertainty.)
Anyway, the reason for my break is that I knew this is something that I couldn't hide because I want this blog to be nothing, if not honest. And I am honestly far from perfect. And there were others that needed to be told about the situation before I shared it with the entire blogging word. Anyway, I know God has forgiven me, and I know that this baby is a miracle. I have prayed as David did in Psalm 51, and I believe completely that God has renewed a right spirit within me and given me a clean heart.
And God has already used this situation to make me realize several things.
I've learned that resting in God's grace is an amazing feeling. Over the last few months, I've faced some very hard times. First when I had to tell my parents that I was pregnant. That was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But I knew that God was with me. And I could feel His arms of grace wrapped around me.
Then He was with me as I told my grandparents (my grandpa is my preacher.) Again, this was extremely difficult, but with God's help, I was able to bear it.
Last Sunday night I stood before my entire church and offered a public apology and asked for love and support. This was something I felt I needed to do because I held positions in the church. Let me just say that I felt SO loved. There was not one person in the church who did not cry with me. There was not one person who didn't wrap me in their arms and offer their prayers and support. There was no sign of unforgiveness. And God showed me His grace through people that have been like my family my entire life.
So I have found that in the face of my failures there is only grace when I lean on Christ. I'll leave you today with the words to this Matthew West song:

There's only grace,
There's only love.
There's only mercy and believing it's enough, it's enough,
My sins ARE GONE without a trace,
There's nothing left now,
There's only grace.