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Monday, June 16, 2008

Got Through the First Father's Day

Well guys, I think I can breathe now (she says as she peers cautiously behind her back leery of what may be coming her way!) Things have finally steadied out here at work, and home life should be less hectic this week. Last week we had revival, and I didn't get home until at least ten every night, then we had to sing Saturday night, church and father's day stuff yesterday. You get the picture.
Yesterday was tough for me. See, Alaena's dad has recently gotten into more trouble, which means he still isn't a part of her life. His parents however are a part of her life, but that gets tricky. See, they really love Alaena, and I truly believe they want what's best for her, but they also wish their son would do better, and at times they think seeing her would change him. And if it did change him, that would be great, but if it didn't the harm done could be monumental. So it's like I'm in a Catch 22. It's hard to know which way to turn.
But I've prayed about it a lot, and it seems that God wants me to stick to my guns. Either he's completely clean, or he doesn't see her, and suprisingly enough, Alaena's dad is actually agreeable to that. Sad part is that he doesn't really seem to want to clean up his act.
Now, I'm not saying I'm perfect, please don't think that. We all sin. But the things Alaena's father is involved in are harmful to himself, and cause him to do things harmful to others. And I don't want to condone that in anyway in front of her, nor do I want her to be hurt by it. I have talked to him about Christ, and he knows that's the way he should go, but he doesn't seem to be to the point that he wants to.l
But I kept looking over my shoulder yesterday thinking he would show up and demand rights in light of the paternal holiday and all. I guess I'm saying all of this to let you guys know that I need your prayer. Prayers that I would make wise decisions. Prayers that Alaena's grandparents would be understanding. Prayers that Alaena's dad would get the help he truly needs through Christ.
Thank all of you for all your support!


At 5:37 AM, Blogger Laurel Wreath said...

Praying for your girl. Sounds like you are letting God lead and that is the best any of us can do. I think it is wise, to tell him what you did (about being clean when seeing her). Is is not like you are not allowing him to be a Father, but it needs to be in safe conditions. He is making his own choices and for that you should not feel guilty.

I can only imagine the heart ache his parents are going through. Being a Mom to three boys, this makes my heart hurt.

Hugs!! You are a good Mommy.

At 4:24 AM, Blogger Shalee said...

Prayers are on their way, Heather. I can't imagine doing what you're doing with such a great attitude. Laurel is right on so may points, but especially that you ARE a great Mommy!


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