Sometimes God's Answers Aren't What We Expected
There have been many times in my life where I've prayed, and God answered my prayer in just the way I've expected. But there are other times where His answers came in ways that I just had to trust Him and know that He was in control. I got an answer like that yesterday.
I won't go into all the details, but let's just suffice it to say that I've been in a battle about Alaena's father. A battle with myself, a battle with those around me, a battle with God, and a battle with her father himself. I've requested prayer on here for him before. And I have honestly prayed that God would reach down and just change his heart. I mean totally make him do a 180.
And I believe that God heard those prayers, and I believe that He gave him a choice. A crossroads if you will. The problem is that when I prayed for direction regarding what I was supposed to do where that area of my life was concerned, I always envisioned a miraculous change in the guy. A Paul kind of conversion you know, where God pretty much came down from heaven, slapped the boy in the head and said, "CHANGE!"
And honestly, I believe that God has been trying to do that. But there are times where people's hearts are just very hard, and no matter how many slaps on the head they receive, they just don't recognize them for what they are.
So yesterday, I received a call from her father, and he told me that he just can't find the strength to change, and pretty much to never mention him to Alaena. And it hurt. It hurt because I think of my little girl who may never know her father. But in the midst of the pain, I had a peace that could only come from God, and I knew that He had provided my answer about what to do where her father was concerned.
So, right now I'm standing in the midst of peaceful chaos. I'm at a place where I don't know exactly what will happen next, but I just know God is in control, and I don't have to worry about it. I do ask that you will continue to pray for her father, because he truly needs Jesus. He's made many professions in the past, but basically yesterday he said he truly didn't know what this whole God thing was about, and maybe God's plan for him was just to always mess up. Satan truly does have him confused.
But God has allowed me to see that for what it is, and I know that I can't allow Satan's confusing games to run my life. So for now at least, Alaena won't know her father. And since I'm a daddy's little girl, the thought of it breaks my heart just a bit. But God is a father to fatherless, and I just know that He will provide her all the love that she is missing from her daddy.
Please keep the two of us in your prayers. And if you are going through a crazy situation, realize that even when things seem totally insane, God is in control, and He will give peace in the midst of the craziest storm.